(If you missed part one and two. . .)
I must tell you that I have had to fight to get from living in empty to living in His fullness. I’m still fighting daily to live in His fullness and truth.
After mom’s death, I had no idea of how intense the battles (and wars) would be that I would fight within my heart for His truth. Grief is such an ugly journey. . . full of many ups and downs.
John 10:10 has become a very special verse to me in the last few years. As I was deeply struggling in my grief, anger, and spiritual questioning, God led me to this verse. Jesus says, “I am come that they may have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” One author paraphrased the verse to read, “The thief comes only to steal, to kill, and to destroy, but I have come to bring them life in its fullness.”
I seriously doubted the truth of this verse for months. My life felt anything but “abundant”. It seemed to me that the devil had won and I would never experience a full life again. Satan is the Ultimate Deceiver! He is downright ugly and plays cruelly! He wants to take me captive. .. and he wants to take you captive. And very often, he slyly pulls our hearts and minds away from the truth by using our emotions, thoughts, feelings, and experiences to pull the engines of our mind and heart rather than allowing Truth to direct our minds and hearts. Our experiences and emotions cannot be our guide. Every event in your life must be understood and interpreted by the Scriptures. For the God revealed in Scripture doesn’t change. (Malachi 3:6) Continue reading Filled With All the Fullness of God- Part Three
A few weeks ago, a friend and I were texting back and forth concerning a difficult family situation she found herself in. After encouraging her heart to trust the Lord and follow Biblical principles, I received her text that read something like this. . .”Thanks for your help. It’s all such a struggle. It just makes me long so for Heaven.”
Don’t we all feel this way at times if we are honest? The struggles of this life threaten to overwhelm us. We get tired of fighting the battles of faith day in and day out. We long for the day when it’s not so hard anymore to obey the Word and submit our fleshly desires to His.
I understand why she made this comment. Many times we are locked into extremely difficult situations, we are dealing with hurtful relationships, and we feel we are sinking under the daily pressures of life. I find myself often longing for Christ’s return and the hope of Heaven where “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore.” (Rev. 21:4)
While it’s not wrong to think of Heaven and long for our future hope (Christ tells us to “set our minds on things above, not on things that are on earth”- Col. 3:2), we must remind our hearts to live in the grace He gives us for now. We must not miss the opportunities for grace that God offers to us in this present life. Continue reading Grace for Now
I’m reminded of the story of Jacob in the OT. Recently I read this as it relates. . .
“A long time ago, a preacher named James H. McConkey asked a friend of his, a doctor, ‘What is the exact significance of God’s touching Jacob upon the sinew of his thigh?’”
“And the doctor told him, ‘The sinew of the thigh is the strongest in the human body. A horse couldn’t even tear it apart.’”
These are the words I’ve never forgotten, what preacher McConkey said. “Ah, I see. The Lord has to break us down at the strongest part of our self-life before He can have His own way of blessing in us.” (One Thousand Gifts– Ann Voskamp)
God breaks us in order to give us the greatest treasure—the blessing of Himself! He desires that we be filled with all the fullness of Christ. Continue reading Filled with All the Fullness of God-Part Two
My blog has been a little quiet lately as I’ve spent many hours in the past few months preparing to speak at a ladies conference. I thought it would be appropriate to share with you some of my notes that I shared last weekend in NC.
The theme of the conference was drawn from the verse in Ephesians 3:19, “and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”
To truly know Christ’s love for me (even though it is beyond fully understanding it. . .His love for us is that deep) and then to be filled with all the fullness of God. . . Oh, how I hunger for that! My heart burns with desire to truly live a life that is filled with all the fullness of God. Continue reading Filled with All the Fullness of God-Part One
This past Sunday, my husband and I were privileged to attend a life class (small group) led by my brother-in-law Ryan. As we began studying the Word from I Peter 3, our hearts were directed to verse 8. I Peter 3:8 reads, “Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind.”
In our discussion of this verse, we came to the word sympathy. Ryan asked the group to share a definition or application for sympathy.
Immediately, my mind thought of a sympathy card! I have given out many sympathy cards to others who are grieving. Unfortunately, I also know exactly what it feels like to receive one of those cards. After Mom’s death, my mailbox was flooded with sympathy cards. While I am extremely grateful for each expression of love and sympathy that showed itself in the form of a card, I have learned from experience that Biblical sympathy extends much deeper than just a card! Continue reading Sympathy Is More Than a Card
I’m just going to be real honest. These last few weeks have been T.O.U.G.H!
Blogging has not been on my radar!
I had LASIK eye surgery a few weeks ago. . . and the healing process is going much to slow for my liking.
Our house is under contract and the repair list seems to keep growing. We have two weeks before closing!
Purchasing a new home has been anything but smooth. . . the stress is insanely real!
My stomach has been tied up completely in knots, my appetite seems to have walked away, and the emotional stress from it all has left me very anxious and in tears many times.
So, where do I run in these times? Where do I find peace for my anxious heart? Continue reading Where Do I Run?
I’ve recently been studying the book of Ephesians. It ranks near the top of my “favorites” list of New Testament books. God has revealed numerous rich truths to me from this short epistle written by the Apostle Paul. The book of Ephesians solidifies my value to Christ and His immeasurable love for me, overwhelming power in me through Christ, and ultimate victory with sin.
Over the past few weeks, I have delved deeper into chapter 6 of Ephesians. God continues to open my eyes more clearly to the war against sin that I am engaged with on a regular basis. I find myself daily battling the enemy in various struggles within my own heart. Some struggles are subtle, while others are recognized more clearly. Continue reading Engaging in the War
from my journal. . .2/23/15
Today has been a hard day! I should have expected it to be. I have felt the emotions of grief buried deep inside my soul for the last week or so. But there has been no time to process it all again. . .and simply give in to the sadness!
Two days ago marked another “grief” milestone. It’s been two years since Mom’s tragic death. I find it so weird still how my mind and body seem to sense certain dates that draw out deep feelings. Continue reading Because He Loves Me, I Press On!
(written in my journal on June 24, 2014)
Psalm 107—“His steadfast love”
This phrase jumped off the pages for me as I read this psalm. “His steadfast love.”
God fills the hungry, He restores the broken, He leads the wandering, He satisfies the longing soul, He rescues the afflicted, He heals the wounded, He calms the storms, He makes us fruitful. . . Let us thank Him for His steadfast love; for His wondrous works to the children of man! Continue reading The Steadfast Love of God
“The man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence indeed is the LORD, is blessed.
He will be like a tree planted by water: it sends its roots out toward a stream, it doesn’t fear when heat comes, and its foliage remains green.
It will not worry in a year of drought or cease producing fruit.” (HCSB) Continue reading Steady in the Changing Seasons of Life