It is one of my favorite times. It is one of my hardest times.
It is a time of sweet and precious memories. It is a time where I find myself now having to purposefully create many new memories.
I eagerly look forward to spending time with extended family and friends. But I deeply miss the presence of my mom (in Heaven) and my dad (in Uganda). The new normal of Christmas isn’t always easy for me.
I often find myself so full of joy in the Christmas season. Yet some days of this holiday season I struggle to breathe when my heart aches with grief and weariness. Continue reading Christmastime Hope
Tears already fill my eyes as I try to write words here.
Yesterday I sat on my front steps of the porch and watched big tears roll down my oldest boy’s cheeks. I listened intently to the sadness in his voice as he expressed confusion and bitterness in losing his meme- my mom.
“Everything has been different since Meme died. Life has seemed so hard since that day. Nothing has gone right, Mom.” Continue reading Helping Your Children Grieve with Truth
I’m just going to be real honest. These last few weeks have been T.O.U.G.H!
Blogging has not been on my radar!
I had LASIK eye surgery a few weeks ago. . . and the healing process is going much to slow for my liking.
Our house is under contract and the repair list seems to keep growing. We have two weeks before closing!
Purchasing a new home has been anything but smooth. . . the stress is insanely real!
My stomach has been tied up completely in knots, my appetite seems to have walked away, and the emotional stress from it all has left me very anxious and in tears many times.
So, where do I run in these times? Where do I find peace for my anxious heart? Continue reading Where Do I Run?
I’ve recently been studying the book of Ephesians. It ranks near the top of my “favorites” list of New Testament books. God has revealed numerous rich truths to me from this short epistle written by the Apostle Paul. The book of Ephesians solidifies my value to Christ and His immeasurable love for me, overwhelming power in me through Christ, and ultimate victory with sin.
Over the past few weeks, I have delved deeper into chapter 6 of Ephesians. God continues to open my eyes more clearly to the war against sin that I am engaged with on a regular basis. I find myself daily battling the enemy in various struggles within my own heart. Some struggles are subtle, while others are recognized more clearly. Continue reading Engaging in the War
Today has been one of those really yuck days! I call them “grief days.”
It started last night as I was up at 12:30 am with my youngest son.
As I climbed back into bed, my mind kicked into high gear and there was no sleep to come! After holding back the sobs that threatened to wake my exhausted husband, I escaped quietly to the living room couch. That old couch and I have shared many sleepless nights together over the past 15 years. I have stained the couch with endless tears through the ups and downs of life. Tonight was yet another encounter with grief and a heartfelt cry to Jesus for strength, peace, and hope in my troubled soul. Continue reading Grace for My Grief Day
Grief and loss bring many changes into our lives. One of the most profound changes often comes in relationships. Through my own grief I have experienced varied dynamics between friends, family, my marriage, and ministry.
My marriage relationship has been significantly altered in the course of grief. Jason and I have learned so many valuable life lessons through these 2 years on the grief journey. Our marriage has risen to a newer and deeper level because of the grace we have both experienced in this trial.
One of the greatest gifts Jason and I are learning to give is the “Gift of Relaxed Expectations.” Continue reading The Gift of Relaxed Expectations
“Mama, can I build a tent in the schoolroom for Lynsey to play in?”
“No, I really would rather you not right now. I don’t want you to get all that stuff out. Can’t you find something else to do?”
That part of me (the neat freak) that absolutely dreads seeing sheets, blankets, and other assorted items accumulating throughout the room that I just cleaned was shouting “NO, NO, NO!” in my head. Continue reading Just Say “Yes”
Today marks 2 years since my precious mom went to be with Jesus. In some ways, it feels like forever. In other ways, I can barely believe it’s been 2 years already. Though not in this world physically any more, Mama still lives in my thoughts! She is very much alive in my memories!
I was truly blessed to have a Godly loving mom. Not only did I call her my mom, but I knew her as my best friend. I will forever treasure the love we shared. Continue reading Quieted By His Love