Since losing my mom, one of the best decisions I’ve ever made is to seek help from a professional Christian counselor.
God has used my counselor to speak truth into my life when I couldn’t feel or think truth for myself.
God has used my counselor to encourage my broken heart and offer hope for tomorrow when I felt there was none.
God has used my counselor to assure me that my feelings were normal and understandable in relation to my circumstances.
God has used my counselor to offer wisdom to me in seeking additional helps for healing.
In so many ways, God has used His people (my Christian counselors) to bring help and healing in my life. Continue reading It’s Ok to Ask for Help
In November of 2015, I had the privilege to speak at a ladies conference in NC. I have shared these sessions with a few friends in my church who encouraged me to post them on the blog. I pray that God will use these words to strengthen and encourage your own heart. God has certainly been faithful in my own life and continues to move my life from “empty to full.”
In these sessions, I quote and reference from many of the following authors. I highly recommend these books that God has used to bring healing and help to my own life through my journey of grief. Continue reading Conference Sessions Available on Vimeo- “From Empty to Full”
We were here. Again. For the second time.
Lauryn, with a terrified look on her face, climbed apprehensively into the dentist’s chair. She knew what was ahead. She had been through this before!
Having four teeth pulled was no joy-ride. It was rather horrific to a ten year old girl who struggles very much with fear of pain.
As I gently held both of her hands in mine, I winced in my own heart as she strangled my fingers with her death grip. I knew she was terrified! As her tears began to flow freely into the sides of her hair, my own tears welled up within my eyes. As she tried to resist the pain and endure the struggle to remain in that chair, I thought of how often I try to resist pain. Pain that I know in my mind will be worth it. But pain that my heart can barely seem to endure. Continue reading The Dentist & My Father’s Love
It is one of my favorite times. It is one of my hardest times.
It is a time of sweet and precious memories. It is a time where I find myself now having to purposefully create many new memories.
I eagerly look forward to spending time with extended family and friends. But I deeply miss the presence of my mom (in Heaven) and my dad (in Uganda). The new normal of Christmas isn’t always easy for me.
I often find myself so full of joy in the Christmas season. Yet some days of this holiday season I struggle to breathe when my heart aches with grief and weariness. Continue reading Christmastime Hope
Tears already fill my eyes as I try to write words here.
Yesterday I sat on my front steps of the porch and watched big tears roll down my oldest boy’s cheeks. I listened intently to the sadness in his voice as he expressed confusion and bitterness in losing his meme- my mom.
“Everything has been different since Meme died. Life has seemed so hard since that day. Nothing has gone right, Mom.” Continue reading Helping Your Children Grieve with Truth
I’m just going to be real honest. These last few weeks have been T.O.U.G.H!
Blogging has not been on my radar!
I had LASIK eye surgery a few weeks ago. . . and the healing process is going much to slow for my liking.
Our house is under contract and the repair list seems to keep growing. We have two weeks before closing!
Purchasing a new home has been anything but smooth. . . the stress is insanely real!
My stomach has been tied up completely in knots, my appetite seems to have walked away, and the emotional stress from it all has left me very anxious and in tears many times.
So, where do I run in these times? Where do I find peace for my anxious heart? Continue reading Where Do I Run?
I’ve recently been studying the book of Ephesians. It ranks near the top of my “favorites” list of New Testament books. God has revealed numerous rich truths to me from this short epistle written by the Apostle Paul. The book of Ephesians solidifies my value to Christ and His immeasurable love for me, overwhelming power in me through Christ, and ultimate victory with sin.
Over the past few weeks, I have delved deeper into chapter 6 of Ephesians. God continues to open my eyes more clearly to the war against sin that I am engaged with on a regular basis. I find myself daily battling the enemy in various struggles within my own heart. Some struggles are subtle, while others are recognized more clearly. Continue reading Engaging in the War
Today has been one of those really yuck days! I call them “grief days.”
It started last night as I was up at 12:30 am with my youngest son.
As I climbed back into bed, my mind kicked into high gear and there was no sleep to come! After holding back the sobs that threatened to wake my exhausted husband, I escaped quietly to the living room couch. That old couch and I have shared many sleepless nights together over the past 15 years. I have stained the couch with endless tears through the ups and downs of life. Tonight was yet another encounter with grief and a heartfelt cry to Jesus for strength, peace, and hope in my troubled soul. Continue reading Grace for My Grief Day
Grief and loss bring many changes into our lives. One of the most profound changes often comes in relationships. Through my own grief I have experienced varied dynamics between friends, family, my marriage, and ministry.
My marriage relationship has been significantly altered in the course of grief. Jason and I have learned so many valuable life lessons through these 2 years on the grief journey. Our marriage has risen to a newer and deeper level because of the grace we have both experienced in this trial.
One of the greatest gifts Jason and I are learning to give is the “Gift of Relaxed Expectations.” Continue reading The Gift of Relaxed Expectations
“Mama, can I build a tent in the schoolroom for Lynsey to play in?”
“No, I really would rather you not right now. I don’t want you to get all that stuff out. Can’t you find something else to do?”
That part of me (the neat freak) that absolutely dreads seeing sheets, blankets, and other assorted items accumulating throughout the room that I just cleaned was shouting “NO, NO, NO!” in my head. Continue reading Just Say “Yes”