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From my journal. . . .Mother’s Day 2013

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Lord,

I can’t help but think about my sweet mama a lot this week. Wow! Only You know how every thought is filled with her memory! It seems I can’t escape her presence. . ..although she’s not really here anymore.

Sometimes it still seems so unreal that she is now with You. . .but I’m glad she’s safe now and has found her joy again. But the ache of missing her buries deep within my bosom. My chest hurts with the pain of losing my best friend and mentor. The questions of her death run deep within my mind. Continue reading From my journal. . . .Mother’s Day 2013

Because He Loves Me, I Press On!

from my journal. . .2/23/15

Today has been a hard day! I should have expected it to be. I have felt the emotions of grief buried deep inside my soul for the last week or so.  But there has been no time to process it all again. . .and simply give in to the sadness!

Two days ago marked another “grief” milestone.  It’s been two years since Mom’s tragic death.  I find it so weird still how my mind and body seem to sense certain dates that draw out deep feelings. Continue reading Because He Loves Me, I Press On!

A Letter to My Daughter

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from my journal…

April 2015

Dear Lauryn,

You hold such a special and tender place in my heart. My heart grieves with you today. This week has been a tough one for you. Saying goodbye to your sweet little cat Bolt has been a very hard thing. He brought you so much joy and delight!

I remember when you first brought him home. You cared for him so tenderly . . . like he was your own little baby. You’ve always had a gentle way with animals. And Bolt knew his owner was a softie! Continue reading A Letter to My Daughter

Grace for My Grief Day

Today has been one of those really yuck days! I call them “grief days.”

It started last night as I was up at 12:30 am with my youngest son.

As I climbed back into bed, my mind kicked into high gear and there was no sleep to come! After holding back the sobs that threatened to wake my exhausted husband, I escaped quietly to the living room couch. That old couch and I have shared many sleepless nights together over the past 15 years. I have stained the couch with endless tears through the ups and downs of life. Tonight was yet another encounter with grief and a heartfelt cry to Jesus for strength, peace, and hope in my troubled soul. Continue reading Grace for My Grief Day

Quieted By His Love

Today marks 2 years since my precious mom went to be with Jesus. In some ways, it feels like forever. In other ways, I can barely believe it’s been 2 years already. Though not in this world physically any more, Mama still lives in my thoughts! She is very much alive in my memories!

I was truly blessed to have a Godly loving mom. Not only did I call her my mom, but I knew her as my best friend. I will forever treasure the love we shared. Continue reading Quieted By His Love